Toddler Mom

After 4years Im back to my very own blog :) being a mom you have to give ur full dedication till ur kid is independent enough to do her things. Yes, We are proud of her. She's very own Apoorva :) my world had been revolving around her. Now she's into kindergarten and self independent for her age. The way she copies us is life a big shock for all of us. My copy cat even scolds me the same way I scold her with her cute little eyes wide open and moving her right hand up and down. It's true kids learn from parents. As she now understands Beta, don't disturb mom I'm doing some work. When I look back I keep wondering was I really ready to be mom and now when I see myself as mom somewhere I feel why my mom used to say "you won't understand untill you are a Mom" :) Thank you to My Mom :) All this years I understand how much she struggled to bring me and my brother to what we are today. :) Looking forward to  many more years of motherhood where I will see my little one growing and teaching me new things. :) Toddlers are very hyper active ones. You never know what they do next in few seconds if they just don't get attention from you. I'm also being a toddler in childhood I also wonder what I would have did to my mom when I was a toddler. :) Those little gestures are very important to toddlers which they feel how their parents or grandparents show. Those cute hugs, flying kisses and kissing on their cute hands. They feel really affectionate about you as mom. Does this matter to your kid in all ages? I'm yet to experience :)

Faith!!

Recently, something unusual I saw. Yes, it about having faith in god. A person who showed me that the place never matters for a person who have faith in god. Even I can say like this. A god fearing person doesn't need a particular place or special pooja room to pray. Only the faith and belief counts for person to person. Nothing else matters. Yes, this was something that touched me. As I am also a god fearing person. Wondered really people do have faith in god in their own ways and style or even culture wise it varies.

A railway employee, a person who provides cushions and bedsheets in the AC coach. Yes, he really made me think twice how we being middle class people worship a god in our pooja rooms. He in that way doesn't even need a pooja room to pray. At the time of dusk, he got freshen up and opened his bag while doing that he was removing his shoes and noticed something in his bag was not sure what it was. In few seconds, I realized he was taking some kumkum from his bag pouch and applying it on his forehead. I was really surprised to see his devotion. Though he is a simple man, who travels miles and miles every day and night and reaches back once in new moon. Was doing his prayers silently, not even bothering that train is moving I am out of my house, I don't have any idol to worship. But just the faith made him do so. Wow, felt so nice about that feeling. :) To see someone being so devotional. :)  

Preparations On, For My D Day!!!! :)

On, On and On... Yipeeee preparations on it's peak... :) Yes, Yes it's my marriage :) Each and everything is happening special :) Being youngest and only daughter of my folks.. I am the princess of My D Day :) Wow... things are happening.. I am still in dream world not able to understand what is happening around me :) Is that things happening so fast I am not able to take it or is that I had always dreamt of these things and they are coming so true??? I am confused!!!! But a nice feel of being in love and been loved that to when it's your someone special :) The right man of your life meets you all of a sudden and things happen in a short period of time.. You are just clueless really things are happening or I am still dreaming about this?? An end to your loneliness.. Someone to share your secrets and all the naughty things that you have ever did before in your life... :)

Things are happening more in my native where my parents and relatives are busy with the preparations and I am here busy with my work. :( But soon I will join them and will come to know how things are going on there. :) Shopping, Shopping and Shopping.. It's heights now we are not able to finish the shopping and guessing that  it will continue till I leave for wedding to my native. :( Day and night shopping.. Weekdays and weekends shopping. The list is never going to end. Invited all friends and yes one sad thing is that wedding day is set on a working day so very few friends are supposed to come. :( My best friends cum roommates will be there day before marriage and I am excited to show them my place :)

By the way forgot to mention My Native - Kerala :)

I know everyone is familiar with the name itself. Yes, God's own country :) The place where my wedding is call Alaphuzha (Alleppey), The Venice of East :) The place of lagoons and sea :) The place where I always spend my vacations in my childhood. The place to which I am too much attached emotionally. :) But I belong to a place called Trichur, The Cultural Capital of Kerala. :) Yes, Alaphuzha is my maternal parental house and Trichur my parental house. :) Hope you understood the differences between the places and why I am attached with both the places. :) When it comes on a question to say which place you like more.. I am just speechless :) I love both places for different reasons. :)  

My mind is going blind.. Just speechless... Emotionally driven too.. Leaving My parental home and going to start a new living in a New Place :( A mixed emotions flowing inside me.. :( Not able to distinguish happiness or sadness... :( Not able to express my emotions anywhere.. When I am with my mom.. :( Certain emotions doesn't have words to express them.. Being a writer you find it difficult to quote them in a proper way to convey your emotions... :( 

Bottom line of this article - Why only girls have to get married and leave everything behind and accept a new place and new relationships??? Just because you are born Indian Traditional Girl??? Never got a proper answer to this question... :(

Changes In Life..!!!!

Last two months ever since I stopped blogging.. Yeah, the person who was crazy to write, write and write. Is not interested in doing it today?? Oh man that sounds really weird.. Exactly that's what made me also felt what really went wrong to me my all interest in writing has almost gone Nil??? Might be that my life has changed a lot in last two months! Yes, I am in love :) Never knew or felt such a wonderful feel ever since till it happened to me! :") All of a sudden priorities changed. I started forgetting things around me. Things around me started happening as if I am in dream world... Yes. it happens to every one I guess.. Love at first sight! :") You feel you are in heaven :) Someone calls You Beautiful not because You are Beautiful just that in His Eyes You are Beautiful :) His Love makes You Beautiful :) Every time you try making yourself realize that you are just beautiful because he is with you :) Yes, I am getting married!!! Things are changing and things will change, new people, new world and new place of dwelling!
A mixed feeling.. Leaving behind certain valuable things with you had lots of attachments.. a feel of being yours is gonna leave you.. new things gonna replace them... wondering how to react to them.. 

After all being a girl born in India goes through same stages as I am going through now...

P.S - Realization -

1. Things which you have longed for comes to you all of a sudden without any indication that it's gonna happen. :)
2. Everything gets messed up once you fall in love :P 
3. You forget each and everything that happens around you. :P
4. You are no more single. :P
5. Life going to Try you Forever. :(
6. Learning new meanings of words like Commitment, Compromise, Responsibility  and Adjustment. :)
7. And more over companionship with whom You Will Spend All Your Whole Life :)
8. You are no more Alone. :P

Courage to Face Challenges!

This came into my mind when a silly thing happened two days back in my hostel.. Me and a girl where waiting for the lift suddenly we started hearing some sounds from the lift.. As usual I was listening to music I didn't hear it rather that girl started asking me, "did u hear that?". And I was like "what?" . "Some noise is coming from the lift, did you hear that?? " I said "yeah, lets wait and watch why is it coming?". Suddenly the noise started increasing because the lift was coming down. She suddenly ran near the stair case and said "I am going through this way, if you want you go in lift". I was "ok ok, just chill lets see what it is!". By the time she left and the lift reached ground floor.

The suspense is now... When the lift reached ground floor and got opened. A small kid was stamping in the lift and making that noise... I was "Ha ha ha, naughty boy it was you?".. He smiled at me and just stepped out..
I don't know whether it was something that made me think like this " Even in our life things come to you like this, all of a sudden. Really unexpected its you who has to decide whether you want to face it or not". Making it more precise "Be bold enough to face challenges or situations that come across you" then no need to run as she did. :)
You must have the courage to face challenges.. Every challenge will have some meaning hidden in it.. Meaning here I meant " either that will give you good/bad experience or something that you have never faced before..which might be really interesting or even boring too..! :P

Monsoon Rains..!

The smell of wet sand on the first rainy day is something special... The moment water drops touches the earth.. The love between them splashes in the form of water drops and the fragrance of love in the wet sand... Mild breeze that touches you softly after it stops raining... A feel which makes you speechless for few hours... Natural showers never makes you bored of getting wet as well ;) You will love to get drenched especially when it's in Bangalore :) I just love this rain :) Breeze that touches your soul... Gives you a heavenly feeling.. :) No more words to express those feelings during these monsoon nights :)

Uncertain Situation..

In life I have always wondered when you don't want things, they will just like that come to you without putting any sort of effort to it.. But the things that you want in your life doesn't come so easily to you.. When the things that you want are about to happen in your life.. one or the other it will get delayed or it will change into something else where you have to accept the fact and move on.. I think its because that we expect too much in life and when we don't get it.. it takes you under depression and all lost kind of feel in you.. Rather I would say don't run or urge for something.. If such a feel of getting it has come in you.. it will be all yours but on right time and right place when God has to give you or provide you with it..!

Just that patience is something that you have to learn in life.. All that success for successful people has not come to them in a single day, just that their patience to stick to their goal and the thrive to achieve it was same through out till they achieved it..! They might have failed a lot of time but won just once.. that winning time made them successful.. Brought them out with full flying colors.. Proved themselves what they are.. what are they up to..!

I would suggest all that be patient to achieve your goals rather worrying and getting tensed thinking "what's next?" Let the things happen their way and accept things as they come to you and Your role in this is to give your best to achieve what you want and leave the rest.

P.S - Inspired by some personal experiences around me and my friends.